Took A Chance ...

And yes, it involves a guy.
Every six months or so, I get the urge to take a chance on a guy. How does it go? Well, I've been single for three years.
There have been some guys that were interested, but I didn't return the favor. I'm not a total loss and I don't want to settle.
So I took a chance and the guy is already taken, but he appreciated my boldness. Still not sure how to take that except as a compliment.
I've basically been bi-polar about my action. Sometimes I think it is a good thing to be bold and take a chance. Then other times I wonder why I put myself out there like that. I mean, I've run into some assholes and have I got stories about them!
I guess I also realized that I have my guard up most of the time. That I give off the "Mind Your Own" vibe. And it takes awhile before I let that vibe calm down and bother with my looks again. It's such a long while because I forgot why I have that vibe up. It's what I attract when the vibe isn't there that brings the vibe right back: weirdos, pervs and nerds.
Sorry, but it's gotta be said.
And I have no right to lament that NO ONE asks me out. How can they when I have that vibe? When I let it down just long enough to take another chance and then shields are activated again.

So it's occurred to me that maybe I should be aware, but not self-cornered. I can take a chance on a guy but I can't allow chances to be made?
I sense some change here ...
And does anyone else have that Abba song in their head? I apologize.